Today is the last day for the November 2006.. Nothing is special today..
I'll face it instead of let myself falls into troubles.. Im going to deal with them later..
Yesterday i went to Prangin Mall with friend.. We watached the "Happy Feet".. The story is quite funny.. The penguin is so cute > <" Nothing much to write.. Just want to share some cute pictures here.. P/S: DONT LAUGH!
Horray! I'm back to here again.. About the Fun Tarc Sing.. I decided not to take part of it..
Last Saturday.. I went out together with Ah Weng... Oh ya.. I know him since i was in the secondary school.. Yea.. he's from Kelantan - Kota Bharu too.. Now, he's staying at Penang... We went to Gurney and watched the "A battle of Wits".. He told me that i changed alot since i come to Penang.. I admit that, i changed alot.. Really alot.. Well, human'll change time to time right? Who never change? Tell me~
This morning.. I was not satisfied with what i did in the test.. It's my fault that i din't push myself yesterday night.. Anyway, it's okie.. Shall put more effort next time..
To Alvan: Remember ya.. Yea, Alvan told me that momo and him will coming down to Penang next week..
I feels so sleepy now.. Yesterday i slept for just4 hours only.. Im going to take a short nap later, regain my energy back..
Well, I feels better now.. Thank to those who're trying to console me.. Thank you very much..
Yesterday, Jie Jie told me lots of things.. Jiejie is right, life is still moves on.. Troublesome people is so call a demon.. What for i live so hard just because of to settle the problem between me and him.. Those kids just let it be.. Just because hefeeling lonely and nothing to do with.. Then started to have fun or what..
From left : Me, Sheau Jye, Ming Long, Loo Yuin, JingZi, Chia Pei, Keat Leng
Friends? If just because of small matter than you dont want to treat me as friend then end it.. I also dont want a friend who looking so hard on those tiny thing.. I'll only leave you far far away..
From left : Me, Hooi Ping's Bf, Hooi Ping, Sheany, Mervin, Remy
Just now, my friends keep asking me to take part of the Fun Tar Sing Competition.. Im so confuse now.. Should I take part? Tomorrow is the last day to submit the form.. Haiz.. No idea..
Woke up as usual.. Prepared myself for the presentation.. Walked to school.. and it was raining..
Well, it's not well prepared.. I felt so tired yesterday night after i came back from Gurney..
Reached the college.. I thought I was already late.. But it was not what i thought.... I cant paid much attention during the lecture as i have to present after that.. Felt so nervous..
Time to present.. During the presentation, I keep telling myself not to make any mistake... Especially infront of him... Yea, the presentation was so successful, and it was run smothly...
When the class dismissed, I went back to my hostel.. As usual, turned on my computer again.. I was so unlucky...
To Jacob, As you said, don't simply make promise, i know, but.. I just want to release my pain, express my feeling now.. Sometimes, it's not easy to share something with other.. So, please do allow me to share my feeling here..
I feels so pain now.. But why you still.. There is already a scar in my heart.. Are you have the intention to make it bigger, make thing complicated? but I wont mind if you intend to do so.. You're big enough too think by yourself.. Whatever, just do whatever you like.. You aren't my friend anymore.. -End-
It's over and yet my heart is still bleeding.. What should i do in order to overcome it, to heal it.. Im lost again.. I'll never blame them, but yet i should be thankful because they're motivating me.. Maybe this is the last time i says Thank you to you. Thank you.
Is there anyone willing to stand beside me? I feels helpless now..
Guess what.. Me with some friends at Red Box now.. I've been singing from 7:00p.m.. until now.. and i think I'll stop it around 3:00a.m... Sigh.. Later I need to sacrified my sleep and complete my assignment and the presentation material... I have to present it tomorrow during the tutorial class..
This morning, i woke up at 9:00p.m.. After prepared myself, I played a set of dota.. and then I went to find Pei Hong as he asked me to help him format his com.. Today morning i was surposed to go to Paya Terubong with Chia Pei for the recycl-ing project.. But then i have to cancel it just because of I have lots of works to do..
My head gonna blow up soon.. What are the advantages and disadvantages of outsourcing? What are the advantages and disadvantages of purchasing software packages? What are the advantages and disadvantages of end-user? It's kinda hard to get the information from the internet.. In addition, the reference book that i bought also does not have extra information bout those topics.. I need to submit it before the lecture tomorrow morning.. No choice, have to ask help from friends..
Another subject - my tutorial assignment.. List the 5 common mistakes of the interviewer? Discuss the solution ? I have to present it on this coming tuesday during the tutorial class.. Well, I'll try my best! Don't ever try tounderestimate me!
Just now, Sheany asked me whether want to join them go to Red box tomorrow night or not.. I will go only if im able to finish and well prepare for the tutorial assignment..
Lastly, to Jacob and those STPM candidates.. All the best to all of you.. Gambatte!
Yesterday night.. I knew a new friend who is from K.L... Really nice to know him.. We talked alot last night...
Today morning, i woke up at 9:45a.m.. After i did my laundry, sat infront of my com.. and started to do my tutorial works.. Sigh.. So many of tutorial works are waiting me to finish..
Around 1:00p.m.. Xiao Wei knocked my door.. "knock knock knock".. "Do you want to take the lunch with us?" "Bao Bao'll cook afterward.." I was stunned at the moment.. I dono how to answer her.. But of coz i said yes..
This was the first time to me that someone cooked in the hostel.. and then we ate together at the living room... Just like having a meal with my family.. It was so warm.. I'll never have the chance like this if im still staying at the previous hostel..
After i ate my lunch, i took a bath.. and then i continued my works.. I felt so sleepy and headache.. I took a short nap.. When i woke up, it was already 6:00p.m..
To my friends.. Start from now onward, i will not post anything into my msn space.. I do not want to let some peoples from my msn contacts to read my blog anymore..
I'm going to have my dinner with Mervin later.. He'll come and pick me up later~
It's ranning now.. A rainning day.. Should i give myself another chance? Perhaps, it's time for me to give up..
Now is 5:21pm, and i feels so tired.. My class started on 9:00am till 5:00pm.. and i was fishing in the lecture just now.. Nothing much happened at college today..
My heart is still bleeding.. Anyway, i believe that time will heal me.. A promise is a promise, don't simply make a promise.. Thank for remining me..
Sorry mom, i forgot your birthday.. 13/11/06 You phoned me that day but i dont even wish you "Happy Birthday" Actually, i was not in a good condition that day, well, im not a good son = =" Anyway, Happy Belated Birthday to you..
Why there are some people who are older than me but yet their thinking is so unmature.. He is 22 years old this year.. Imagine that ! 22 years old.. But his attitude just same like a kid.. Little Man, i know you are trying to hurt me.. I tell you, it doesnt hurt me at all.. But the more you write, the happier i am.. Know why? Because you angry, and that's why you write.. Just write whatever you like.. So childish.. I don't mind, because you are just "nothing" to me.. You are nothing to me.. Lalalala..
Can i ask you a question? Actually, what is your dream? Do you ever think about it before? I dont think you have a dream.. Oh ya.. marry a rich gal.. that's your dream.. Slacking at home and doing nothing.. That is your dream.. What a nice dream..
Haiz.. I woke up around 7:50a.m.... but yet i still felt so tired.. Headache, heartache.. What should i do to overcome it..
After i finished my tutorial work..i took my bath.. It was so cold... Then, prepared myself, walked to college with Jingzi.. Nothing much happened at the college..
Dr. Kang reminded me of the presentation.. Shit.. My group need to present on next week.. and yet we havent prepare the material.. Will start it today..
I need to wake up early on this coming thursday.. It's because i have a test on that day.. Managing Information System's test.. and I need to reach the college before 7:50a.m.. On the same day, we need to attend a briefing about the Advance Diploma at 9:00a.m.. I thought i can run away from that briefing.. But unfortunately, the attendance is compulsory..
Time flies too fast.. and now is already week 5.. 9 weeks to go.. and the final is coming.. and i still have alot of subjects to cope with.. I need to resit 2 papers this sem.. It means i have to take 7 papers this sem.. Sweat.. it's too many for me.. Hope i can pass all the subjects.. God bless me! I'll do all my best!
My mom phoned me yesterday night.. I was so touched... She told me something in the phone.. It's seem like she is trying to understand me more.. Thank you so much! I'll always love you..
I always told myself that im weak.. Maybe you are right.. It's because i never do anything that could change myself from weak to strong.. and Im keep running away.. Instead of doing nothing and let other bring me down, I must take some actions.. Thank you so much..
To them.. If you all think that im wrong.. I have nothing to do with it.. I wont care what you think.. It's aint my control.. But im willing to explain to you all if you all are willing to listen.. Since i promised myself that there is no one can bring me down again.. I don want to break the promise..
Yea, guys i gotto go now.. Im going to Red Box with my friends! =\
Erm.. There are lots of unexpected things happened to me recently.. Things are getting worst and worst.. I believe that there is no one will know my feeling now.. Since i shifted the room, things aren't run smothly.. Why could this happen to me?
Know what, i tried to solve it in peace.. But it cause alot of misunderstaning.. Now, i have no idea how to solve it.. There is no one will trust me...
I never tell them bout my feeling.. and this is the reason why all this things happened.. They thought they know everything.. but actually they don't.. They wont listen to me.. and I wont explain to them.. It's aint my control.. I cant control what is in their mind now.. But im sure that i never do anything wrong to them.. I swear..
Well, someone told me that sometime i need to be selfish.. Maybe it's right.. I should'nt care so much.. I must learn.. Perhaps, keep quiet is not a good way to solve problem.. it's because im running away.. argh.. Im totally lost.. My tear is start dropping again..
Hoho, finally im back! Well, it has been few days since my last updated..
I cant online for the past few days.. It's because i shifted my hostel.. I like here very much.. The environment is better than previous one.. Last time, i always came here to do my revision with my classmates.. and now, im her housemates.. The people here are so friendly.. That's not the point, the main point is they know how to care other people's feeling.. They know the time when they cant make noise.. I love the environment here very much..
Yesterday nite, almost all of my housemates went to eat Steamboat together.. It was so sweet.. We took the photo together.. and then we went to Gurney and watched - Acception.. It's hard to have the chance like this to me when i was staying in the previos hostel.. I will upload the picture once i get it..
I saw a quiz in a blog.. Quite interesting.. I would like to share it here with you all..
It's called A Breakfast Quiz.
What you have to do is.. take a pencil/pen/marker/whatever you want, and write your selected choice on a piece of paper..
Okay start!
In the middle of the table is around with food tray with five kinds of fruits on it..
They are:
a. Apple.
b.Banana.
c.Strawberry.
d.Peace.
e.Orange.
Which fruit will you choose? Please think CAREFULLY and don't rush into it. This is great, I was astounded! Your choice reveals alot about you!
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If you have chosen:
a. Apple: That means you are a person who loves to eat apples
b. Banana: That means you are a person who loves to eat bananas
c. Strawberry: That means you are a person who loves to eat strawberries
d. Peach: That means you are a person who loves to eat peaches
e. Orange: That means you are a person who loves to eat oranges
I hope you find fulfillment in this new insight about yourself. May it bring you peace and understanding, tranquility and all that other profound stuff.
Today was a bad day to me.. Tons of things happened.. I was the one who did the wrong things.. No doubt, it's all my fault.. Everyone is getting far away from me..
Someone told me that im weak.. and Im acting that im strong.. I admit that's truth.. I intend to do so.. Just to let everyone see that.. Im strong.. Im happy.. This is what i always do.. I will continue to do so.. I believe one day, i will become the real strong..
Im also a human.. I also have the limitation.. Please don't too over.. It's totally pisses me! I might lost control.. I dont like to argue.. I dont like to scold you..
Oh! Go ahead.. Curse and swear make yourself look like an idiot.. no WAIT, you are an IDIOT...
Why do i hate everything that around me now.. Tell me why..
I wanna shut down.. Shut down from the rest of the world!
To Benny.. Happy Birthday to you.. I do hope you have fun tomorrow.. Wish you all the best! Always the best!
Well, actually there is nothing much that i can share here.. Anyway, someone asked me to update my blog..
Again, i wonder when i can sleep well.. My hostel is in the undesirable state now.. Around 10:00pm+ just now, i turned off the light, and then tried to sleep.. Until 11:30pm+.. that thing happened again.. Haiz, what can i do? How long i can stand this kind of life? No idea.. Anyway, i will try my best in order to survive! Lolz God, please lend me your strength!
This morning.. I went to Permata with some Tzu Qing.. We collected the old newspapers, bottles, clothes, tins, and some materials which can recycle. Chang Xi asked me why i need to cancel the trip to Taiwan.. Haiz.. no choice.. the time not allow me to go..
To someone.. If this happen last year, without thinking much, i will approve.. But everything is different now.. You're too late.. Sorry..
To the other one.. You said that u are not going to celebrate your birthday anymore.. You're going to hide urself... You know what.. Even tho you hide yourself from everyone, but you cant hide from urself.. and there is no point for you to hide yourself.. I will try my best... Wait and see..
To myself.. Im going to complete my work regularly from now on! The previous sems are totally wasted.. and i still need to catch up alot of things.. Im not going to disappoint myself anymore!
Well, as usual, woke up at 8am.. I received a sms from Jacob and he told me that he'll pass his cell phone to his mom after this coming sunday.. and he is going to close his bloggies too.. It's a bad news to me because maybe now he is the only one who i can share the problem with.. Anyway, the STPM is coming soon, all the best to him and thosecandidates.. Took my bath, breakfast and then walked to college.. Nothing much happened at college..
After finished the class, back to my hostel.. Then i received a phone call from JingZi, and she asked me to join her housemates sing K at Gurney.. Sweat.. i can't stand the influence! Without thinking much, i rushed to her hostel.. Haha We sang from 2:30pm till 7:00pm.. It was so fun.. Everyone was enjoyed it very much!
At nite, I went to Gurney again with JingZi, Jia Phei, Loo Yuin and her sister. We purposely went there to watch a movie - Flushed Away.. It is a funny movie, quite nice.. Guys, try to have a look..
Now is already 4th of November 2006.. Today is Hwa Loon's Birthday.. Hoho, you are 22 already! Happy Birthday to you, wish you all the best!
To someone.. Time flies so fast.. and i still cant forget those wonderful memories we spent together during that 11 days! Not forgetting all those time i went to your house, and you celebrated my birthday together with me! It was so wonderful to me! Those times were simply unforgettable!
Assignment! Assignment! Assignment! Presentation! Presentation! Presentation! Lots lots assignments are waiting me to finish it! Gambatteh!
Just now, i heard a bad news from my god bro.. To someone who is close to me, ya, i means CLOSE.. If this is what you going to do, just go ahead, do as your plan, i don't mind.. Im already 19 years old, and since i was young until now, you never try to understand me, and you don't even know what is in my mind right now. You don't even bother to care bout my feeling.. Do you know how i gone tru this 19 years? Do you? I tried to tell you before, but it din't work.. Or maybe im just a nothing to you.. But im sure you're everything to me.. and Thank for everything..
As i said before.. The more i wish to die, the longer i stay alive.. Anyway, this is life.. and Life is just full with craps, shits.. Instead of run away, i will face it! I will.. No matter what!
Well, it was a restless sleep to me again.. Yesterday nite, i tried to close my eye at 1:00am.. But i failed to sleep.. The noise pollution was affecting me... and it was a hard time for me to rest and sleep.. I was pretending that Im still in the dream until 3:30am+.. A nightmare to me.. I cant really sleep well yesterday nite.. I need to wake up early in the morning.. But nevermind.. I have to deal with it... I cant and i wont blame them, that is be'coz they have their freedom to talk, to speak.. But they choosed the wrong time and the wrongplace..
My hostel is turning into a living hell.. and they starting to be less considerate.. Anyway, it wont brings me down.. Im sure there is nothing that can bring me down.. I hope that they will notice it one day.. And i should be thankful that they are my friends.. God bless them~
I woke up at 8:00am.. Although i felt so tired that time.. But i told myself "Yongwei, you should wake up, for ur future!" and i promised myself not to skip any lectures again.. In order to achieve my goal, i will do all my best, and that is my promise to everyone! Well, nothing much happened at the college..
Just now, i chat with ah gor.. Since he lost his hp, it's so hard to contact him.. He told me that why he cried when he lost his hp.. Thank you so much, gor! He remind me of one song - Don't break my heart.. It's a meaningful song to me.. I changed the background sound of this blogsite into this song.. Try to listen and understand it ^ ^
